Tired... drained

I don't really like it when people tell me to smile more and to "brighten up" when they think that i'm sad but in actuality i'm feeling quite the opposite. I tried doing such recommended things but its not easy especially when people put up all this shit at school such as racism and bullying and their anti-bullying policy doesn't work at all because they are not really good at making this so-called policy work and keeping things in order like they are supposed to. When people reading this look through my eyes and step into my shoes for a year they will know why I am this way and why I choose to be.